another year

happy new year and welcome to 2008

another year has passed by and I can't believe 2007 went by so quickly. its good to look back and reflect on the year that was

2007 was a turbulent year for me. moving to a new city, a new job, made a bad investment, losing the love of my life after 7 long years and starting a new life all over again wasn't easy (it's still tough)

i was lucky to have a great family and a bunch of good friends (old and new) to help me through these trying times. maybe it is true, you only truly appreciate things that you have lost

during the last 7 months in hong kong i had plenty of time to reflect on what happened in my past few years. i could have done many things better, in terms of personal, relationship, financial and career development. but what has happened has happened. in a Wong Kar Wai movie, there is a quote, loosely translated as " we humans are so troubled by the past because we have such a good memory ".

my greatest regret was the ending of my relationship with my love. its been a year since my breakup, and it has taken me just as long to recover. there's really no point of discussing whose fault it was, and probably in retrospect, we did take each other for granted. my heart still aches when i see familiar scene, smell a distinct fragrance or hear a unique laughter that reminds me of her. i'm trying really hard to not think of the past and move forward, but i don't know if i could ever love someone as deep again. if you are reading this, i am truly sorry for the hurt i caused, you will always have a special place in my heart

being alone in hong kong has also made me more independent. though i appreciate my alone time, its kinda lonely when you have no one to connect with. during my 1 week x'mas break back in malaysia, i truly comprehended the importance of connecting with people (not a nokia ad).

so look around youselves, appreciate the loved ones/friends/family around you. accept them as they are, as they have accepted you as who you are, and show them you love them

may you have a happy love filled new year...